[he's trying!! there's just a bit of an amused laugh at that - and he nods]
... I don't. But we were pitted in a situation where at first we did not know we were harming each other, and then the second one...
I was not in control of myself.
Normally, I would do what it takes to survive - I have my own goals and ambitions. But... if I do not have my humanity or my compassion, I do not think I am myself anymore.
So I didn't blame them for getting rid of me. Even still, it doesn't make the choice any less difficult.
But depending on what someone's goals are - they don't need to trample on other people in order to reach them. I find that harmony between varying opinions is often difficult, but worth it.
But it's alright! Because I'm alive now, so I won't have to.
I just want to ensure that everyone else is careful - it was a difficult ordeal, and it's hard to be prepared for it. I don't want anyone's hearts or bodies to get broken from an unexpected experience.
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I wouldn't want to be in that situation. But it did happen, to you.
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It did.
[a beat]
Are you bringing it up because you want to know how I felt about it?
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[He assumes he feels bad. He's not really asking because he wants to know; he's just trying to be nice. But he's bad at feelings, so.]
. . . You're so nice. I know you don't want to hurt anyone either.
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... I don't. But we were pitted in a situation where at first we did not know we were harming each other, and then the second one...
I was not in control of myself.
Normally, I would do what it takes to survive - I have my own goals and ambitions. But... if I do not have my humanity or my compassion, I do not think I am myself anymore.
So I didn't blame them for getting rid of me. Even still, it doesn't make the choice any less difficult.
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[He's considering this, like it's a new perspective.]
If those are important things, then you can't only consider others.
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Not only...
But depending on what someone's goals are - they don't need to trample on other people in order to reach them. I find that harmony between varying opinions is often difficult, but worth it.
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[That's not his problem.]
Someone like you. . . you shouldn't have to give up your dreams, either.
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Mm, I think so too.
But it's alright! Because I'm alive now, so I won't have to.
I just want to ensure that everyone else is careful - it was a difficult ordeal, and it's hard to be prepared for it. I don't want anyone's hearts or bodies to get broken from an unexpected experience.
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a little soft smile at that, and a nod]
Thank you, Shigeo. I'll keep that in mind. You're very kind - and I hope not to make you worry after me too much.
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[You said so!!!]