[Just randomly got mad. No, if he thought about it at all, he'd realize he's obviously dealing with a memloss, but also - it's not exactly a memloss. He remembers all the relevant details, at least.]
That doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I go home, now.
[Yeah Mob walks through the barrier and they're able to leave. No, he just walks to the barrier and will start trying to hit it like a dumb little weak nerd with no arm strength and the inability to feel pain.]
[Oh. He wants that a lot. This emotional state, incidentally, is called 100% tenacity, and it exists only to fulfill a purpose he currently can't fulfill. Hence the single-minded pursuit of fucking nothing. He would much rather single-mindedly pursue something.
[it's not as though he doesn't understand - but he wishes that he didn't.]
... then we'll keep trying.
[against this barrier that will do absolutely nothing. soo-won's gentle presses turns to more determined knocks against it, as if it changes anything. it doesn't, but he'll try.]
... but I think it would also help - if you could share with me why you're feeling like this.
[Soo-won. . . those knocks against the barrier make something waver a little bit. He knows full well this will do nothing.
It sort of feels like Soo-won has his warning exactly opposite, but someone who will hit the barrier for him can probably be trusted a little, right?]
I definitely, definitely do not want to let it control me. I will never let that happen again. [Hmm. Maybe we're speaking a little less metaphorically here.]
Talking about it will help? It won't make it worse?
... it might hurt a little bit in the moment, to be reminded of what's causing you pain.
But if you share that pain with someone else, it feels a little less alone. Instead of carrying it all by yourself along with what hurt you to begin with.
Then we can try to figure out how to fix it - two heads are better than one, right?
[because he can't promise an instant solution - yet at the same time he has no interest in just letting mob carry something all by himself]
[and he tilts his head at that, trying to offer a smile to reassure - even though he does seem to otherwise treat the situation as seriously as he can]
So if something bad happens, we can deal with that part together, too.
You're stronger than you give yourself credit for - but I'm also right here, if you need help.
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anyway soo-won is. going to blink in surprise at that? hello? mob? your emotions? he'll follow after though....]
Shigeo? Are you headed somewhere?
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I'm going home now.
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he tilts his head at that even as he continues to walk after him, trailing behind]
Are you...? Did you find a way?
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[So no. He has no plans, this is just a temper tantrum.]
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seems like it!
but at least he won't be temper tantruming alone....]
.... can I ask what prompted this? Did something happen?
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That doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I go home, now.
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[and uh.
wait to see if he has any success? who knows! maybe mob secretly holds the answer to the entire fucking murdergame.]
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but soo-won just... watches it for a little bit.... he'll actually go next to mob and try to push against the barrier? might as well give it a shot.
though after a few moments of that]
.... did you forget something?
Or do you feel odd?
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[. . . As long as Soo-won is helping, it can't hurt to answer, right?]
I don't feel odd. These are my emotions. This is what they're like.
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... do they hurt?
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. . . This one does. Staying like this. But I can't let go of these feelings yet.
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Do you want to harness your hurt into purpose?
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So he nods.]
Yes.
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... then we'll keep trying.
[against this barrier that will do absolutely nothing. soo-won's gentle presses turns to more determined knocks against it, as if it changes anything. it doesn't, but he'll try.]
... but I think it would also help - if you could share with me why you're feeling like this.
If you let the hurt control you, then it wins.
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It sort of feels like Soo-won has his warning exactly opposite, but someone who will hit the barrier for him can probably be trusted a little, right?]
I definitely, definitely do not want to let it control me. I will never let that happen again. [Hmm. Maybe we're speaking a little less metaphorically here.]
Talking about it will help? It won't make it worse?
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But if you share that pain with someone else, it feels a little less alone. Instead of carrying it all by yourself along with what hurt you to begin with.
Then we can try to figure out how to fix it - two heads are better than one, right?
[because he can't promise an instant solution - yet at the same time he has no interest in just letting mob carry something all by himself]
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What if that little bit in the moment - what if it's too much, and something bad happens?
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[and he tilts his head at that, trying to offer a smile to reassure - even though he does seem to otherwise treat the situation as seriously as he can]
So if something bad happens, we can deal with that part together, too.
You're stronger than you give yourself credit for - but I'm also right here, if you need help.
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All right.
. . . This isn't about losing a memory. Since I came here, I've been trying hard not to think about something that happened.
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.... and you suddenly couldn't avoid it anymore?
If I may... what happened?
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. . . I came home from school. My house was on fire. At first, it seemed that no one had been home. But then I went upstairs, and -
[He cuts himself off, here.]
And then Dimple told me to look away, and that he thought a power had been used to create dummies that look like human beings.
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[if he can guess at exactly what mob saw]
And you need to go home, so you can try to fix the situation?
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[He's. Very aware that he might not have been.]
I have to find the person who has that power.
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[it's hard for soo-won to argue against, but at the same time....
with his hand that it not knocking on the barrier, he will also reach out put a hand on mob's shoulder.]
Do you want a hug before we keep trying?
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