[ . . . . he looks thoughtful about that, and unfortunately his answer is - ]
I don't know.
[because he doesn't remember yona.]
But I've read His Majesty Il's memoirs, and his insistence that he knew that he would fall short of my judgments, and in the same breath insisted that I could never be king.
He was insistent on waiting for the gods to come and save the kingdom. [which is also tied to yona but he doesn't know that] However when people are suffering, how can you continue to wait on the heavens when they aren't coming?
Yona seems nice. Perhaps you're right, and there could have been ways to avoid a violent act to take power. [he doesn't sound convinced but also - with the gaps in his memory, he recognizes that there's the slightest chance of it.]
But I'm afraid it's done, and I will live with what I've lost, and the harm I have caused others.
I'm sorry if I've disappointed you.
[but he never expects anyone to have a high opinion of him in the first place. that's not why he takes the actions he does.]
[He is disappointed, but it isn't as though he's angry or no longer cares about Soo-won. It just is hard for him to square. He can forgive anything from a person who wants to change and become better, but a person who is sure his decision was right - he doesn't know what to do about that.
Still, he takes a few quiet seconds to consider his response.]
. . . What I think is that you're an incredible person. I saw in your memory, and here, how much people listen to you and trust you, and how much you use that to help everyone. The way you're able to talk to people and make decisions is, in a way, one of the most incredible things I've ever seen.
So it disappoints me to hear you say that something awful like that is something you'll live with. Because. . . I think you could find a better way, even if I'm not smart enough to.
Even if it wasn't possible then, you can still try to become someone who wouldn't have to use violence! You shouldn't just accept things as they are!
[ . . . . . he looks thoughtful himself, as if trying to consider. could he have been able to do something else to avoid the death of king il? he's not sure, not when his memories are as fragmented as they are. is he able to do something to avoid future wars? he's also not sure.]
.... it's not as though I reach for my sword as a first resort. I did make a mistake recently, when it came to presuming that a conflict would come to war. I am relieved it was avoided, and... I have been trying to amend my ways from that.
[however.]
.... however, I think in the time period that I live in, with the current geography and politics, sometimes violence cannot be avoided.
Of course, there are ways to minimize casualties when it does come to blows. I try to avoid any death where possible, because causing unnecessary strife will only lead to further suffering and spite.
I would like a world of peace, and my only true goal is to have my country be one that is strong enough so it is not invaded by foreign powers. But I also think that my reality might just be different from yours, Shigeo.
[when choosing non-violence can be, in and of itself, an act of weakness that would put the rest of the country in danger]
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I don't know.
[because he doesn't remember yona.]
But I've read His Majesty Il's memoirs, and his insistence that he knew that he would fall short of my judgments, and in the same breath insisted that I could never be king.
He was insistent on waiting for the gods to come and save the kingdom. [which is also tied to yona but he doesn't know that] However when people are suffering, how can you continue to wait on the heavens when they aren't coming?
Yona seems nice. Perhaps you're right, and there could have been ways to avoid a violent act to take power. [he doesn't sound convinced but also - with the gaps in his memory, he recognizes that there's the slightest chance of it.]
But I'm afraid it's done, and I will live with what I've lost, and the harm I have caused others.
I'm sorry if I've disappointed you.
[but he never expects anyone to have a high opinion of him in the first place. that's not why he takes the actions he does.]
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[He is disappointed, but it isn't as though he's angry or no longer cares about Soo-won. It just is hard for him to square. He can forgive anything from a person who wants to change and become better, but a person who is sure his decision was right - he doesn't know what to do about that.
Still, he takes a few quiet seconds to consider his response.]
. . . What I think is that you're an incredible person. I saw in your memory, and here, how much people listen to you and trust you, and how much you use that to help everyone. The way you're able to talk to people and make decisions is, in a way, one of the most incredible things I've ever seen.
So it disappoints me to hear you say that something awful like that is something you'll live with. Because. . . I think you could find a better way, even if I'm not smart enough to.
Even if it wasn't possible then, you can still try to become someone who wouldn't have to use violence! You shouldn't just accept things as they are!
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.... it's not as though I reach for my sword as a first resort. I did make a mistake recently, when it came to presuming that a conflict would come to war. I am relieved it was avoided, and... I have been trying to amend my ways from that.
[however.]
.... however, I think in the time period that I live in, with the current geography and politics, sometimes violence cannot be avoided.
Of course, there are ways to minimize casualties when it does come to blows. I try to avoid any death where possible, because causing unnecessary strife will only lead to further suffering and spite.
I would like a world of peace, and my only true goal is to have my country be one that is strong enough so it is not invaded by foreign powers. But I also think that my reality might just be different from yours, Shigeo.
[when choosing non-violence can be, in and of itself, an act of weakness that would put the rest of the country in danger]