[That does make sense, right? Doesn't it? He's not sure; it's hard to focus on anything else right now. But he does feel like he wants to tell her.
The last time this happened, there was also someone he wanted to trust in, but it didn't end up so well. And yet, Jeanne isn't really asking anything from him except honesty.]
There was a fire at my home. It burned to the ground. And when I went inside after, there were also. . .
[His negative feelings are ticking upwards again, uncomfortable, and his expression changes away from the incredibly focused look to something terrified. He doesn't want to have to explain this part. He hopes Jeanne will just understand what he saw inside. That it wasn't only his home that he saw burning.]
Dimple said a power was used to create dummies that look exactly like human beings. I need to find out whether he was telling the truth.
[ Jeanne walks up to him and wraps her arms around him in a hug. She hopes her sincerity is carried through even if he can't feel this embrace. It hurts a little that she can't convey more. It aches that he had to witness such a thing. ]
When we first met, you told me they were safe.
[ She doesn't know if this is what is truth in his world, but it is what he told her. She doesn't even know if this will even register with him with how memories work here, but she has to try. She can't let him go.
His grief of the unknown loss and the expanse of his love— she knows how true they are. ]
[He'll accept the hug, without moving to return it. Even with how upset he is, there's a part of him that feels relieved - he was able to explain, and nothing bad happened. Relieved enough to let himself tear up a little and relax some of his control. So that part - the part where she said it wouldn't be dangerous to talk about - was true.
But he has to shake his head to the rest of it.]
I didn't forget that. I didn't forget. [He sounds pretty confident about that.] What I said when we met - I wanted to believe it. Because after, when I found Reigen-san, he said Dimple was probably right about the dummies, and I wanted to believe him, and I wanted to stop looking for the person with that power. It hurt, to stay like this for so long, and I wanted to give up looking, so I decided to believe Reigen-san.
But I didn't know. And he doesn't know. He was lying to me.
[ He doesn't need to return the hug. Jeanne will tighten her hold a little, and she feels like crying, listening to him. She doesn't, but her heart is heavy with the sadness that Mob has experienced.
If he was lied to, if no one knows for certain, she can't promise him it will be all right. She doesn't like to give false hopes and promises. ]
I think he didn't want you to keep hurting or for you to hurt others, but... he shouldn't have lied, not like that.
But I think... it's okay to want to believe your family is safe. It's something good to hope for even if you don't know. It's something you can work to know.
[Yeah, it's bad. He nods at what she says. It's painful, but it's better than being lied to and told it's okay.]
I'm sure he only wanted to keep me from losing control. . . and Dimple, too. Before he said what he said, I nearly - [Hmm.] I am grateful to Dimple for stopping me, even if it was with a lie.
But now I've been here weeks and haven't even tried to go home or look for them.
You are being too hard on yourself. You are trying. In your own way, you have been trying.
[ Her voice is gentle but firm. ]
We have all been working to go home. It may not be direct, and it may not be quick, but that doesn't mean we aren't all trying. That includes you, Shigeo.
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The last time this happened, there was also someone he wanted to trust in, but it didn't end up so well. And yet, Jeanne isn't really asking anything from him except honesty.]
There was a fire at my home. It burned to the ground. And when I went inside after, there were also. . .
[His negative feelings are ticking upwards again, uncomfortable, and his expression changes away from the incredibly focused look to something terrified. He doesn't want to have to explain this part. He hopes Jeanne will just understand what he saw inside. That it wasn't only his home that he saw burning.]
Dimple said a power was used to create dummies that look exactly like human beings. I need to find out whether he was telling the truth.
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When we first met, you told me they were safe.
[ She doesn't know if this is what is truth in his world, but it is what he told her. She doesn't even know if this will even register with him with how memories work here, but she has to try. She can't let him go.
His grief of the unknown loss and the expanse of his love— she knows how true they are. ]
They will be safe.
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But he has to shake his head to the rest of it.]
I didn't forget that. I didn't forget. [He sounds pretty confident about that.] What I said when we met - I wanted to believe it. Because after, when I found Reigen-san, he said Dimple was probably right about the dummies, and I wanted to believe him, and I wanted to stop looking for the person with that power. It hurt, to stay like this for so long, and I wanted to give up looking, so I decided to believe Reigen-san.
But I didn't know. And he doesn't know. He was lying to me.
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If he was lied to, if no one knows for certain, she can't promise him it will be all right. She doesn't like to give false hopes and promises. ]
I think he didn't want you to keep hurting or for you to hurt others, but... he shouldn't have lied, not like that.
But I think... it's okay to want to believe your family is safe. It's something good to hope for even if you don't know. It's something you can work to know.
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I'm sure he only wanted to keep me from losing control. . . and Dimple, too. Before he said what he said, I nearly - [Hmm.] I am grateful to Dimple for stopping me, even if it was with a lie.
But now I've been here weeks and haven't even tried to go home or look for them.
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[ Her voice is gentle but firm. ]
We have all been working to go home. It may not be direct, and it may not be quick, but that doesn't mean we aren't all trying. That includes you, Shigeo.
dw stop! eating! my precious jeanne tags!
[He's just repeating what she said, because he kind of needs to hear it.]
But I can't wait here forever, either. If they're still alive, then they need me!
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[ She pulls away from him, so she meet his gaze head on. ]
To get back to your future, you need to focus on your present.
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[He trusts her, so he'll listen to that, too.]
I don't know what I'm able to do here.
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There are many questions that need answers.