[A little bit of both. He didn't know how bad her news would be, but he's able to hold back.]
Me? . . . I don't know. [That's an extremely complicated question for someone who struggles as much with thinking through complicated things as he does. He doesn't have much of a sense of who he is to begin with. But. Hold on, because he's going to express a complete thought.]
Everyone is who they are because of the people they have around them and the things they experience. Without remembering important things like that, it is possible to lose yourself. But we're lucky here, because we're surrounded by others who are kind. That's worth considering, too.
His answer makes Jeanne's smile warm. It's a little soothing to know his good will, but it also pains her because he's someone who doesn't deserve to lose parts of himself like this. ]
It is. All of that is worth it. There are good people willing to help others, and I am grateful to meet and learn about every one of them. That's why I want to do what I can for you and for them.
If this is as friendly a game as they say it is, shall we try to make it a quick game? That way, we can help and save everyone from losing more than they should.
[He doesn't like that she's afraid of losing herself, when she's been so nice and brave like this. If there's something he can help with, he thinks it might be that.
After all, this has happened to him before.]
We'll all just have to do our best to find the nova before those things happen.
There was a time before this, too, that I was in a place where I lost my memories. I definitely. . . I definitely forgot about some very important things.
[Well, if she's just blatantly going to ask, he'll answer, but he hasn't really talked about this much before.]
There was an evil spirit who was possessing a girl. I sent my consciousness inside her to try to get him to leave. But instead, he wound up causing me to forget everyone I know.
I'm still in middle school, but that's my part time job.
[Anyway, what happened next, is. Uh. He doesn't really know how to answer, but he'll try.]
I was in a world that was like mine except I was alone and I didn't have any powers or any friends or anyone to help me. But that girl was in there, too, and she was. . . really awful.
He wanted to show me that people like her weren't worth using my powers to save.
[Well, the answer to that is he doesn't really need to have one at all. But anyway, haha, since this conversation is happening on Sunday before memloss, yes, he nods.]
I think that. . . I changed there in a way I didn't like, because I forgot the people who are important to me. But if I can change because of other people, then anybody can change.
Jeanne shifts how she holds the bowl of milk, so she can take one of Mob's hands with her free one. She smiles warmly at him. ]
Anyone can change, for good or bad. It is easy to believe in the worst, but for you to believe the better of someone even after seeing them do awful things makes you strong and kind.
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We may lose our memories.
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[He doesn't react for a second, just looks at her blankly, and then takes a deep breath and lets out a sigh, almost like relief.]
I don't want that to happen. [But it seems like he's not freaking out about it.]
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Her smile is wan. ]
I don't want it to happen either. To you or anyone else here. If there's one thing I don't want to lose, it's myself, but...
What is it that you consider you?
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Me? . . . I don't know. [That's an extremely complicated question for someone who struggles as much with thinking through complicated things as he does. He doesn't have much of a sense of who he is to begin with. But. Hold on, because he's going to express a complete thought.]
Everyone is who they are because of the people they have around them and the things they experience. Without remembering important things like that, it is possible to lose yourself. But we're lucky here, because we're surrounded by others who are kind. That's worth considering, too.
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His answer makes Jeanne's smile warm. It's a little soothing to know his good will, but it also pains her because he's someone who doesn't deserve to lose parts of himself like this. ]
It is. All of that is worth it. There are good people willing to help others, and I am grateful to meet and learn about every one of them. That's why I want to do what I can for you and for them.
If this is as friendly a game as they say it is, shall we try to make it a quick game? That way, we can help and save everyone from losing more than they should.
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[He doesn't like that she's afraid of losing herself, when she's been so nice and brave like this. If there's something he can help with, he thinks it might be that.
After all, this has happened to him before.]
We'll all just have to do our best to find the nova before those things happen.
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For each other and the worlds depending on us, we’ll do our very best. But are you not worried about what you can lose, Shigeo?
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[He nods, serious.]
There was a time before this, too, that I was in a place where I lost my memories. I definitely. . . I definitely forgot about some very important things.
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[ Her voice is soft, almost too quiet. That he has to possibly experience that all over again... ]
If it's not too painful, will you tell me about it?
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There was an evil spirit who was possessing a girl. I sent my consciousness inside her to try to get him to leave. But instead, he wound up causing me to forget everyone I know.
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Your consciousness? Is that... are you an exorcist?
[ That's not the important part, though. She's trying to put it in context. ]
What happened next?
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I'm still in middle school, but that's my part time job.
[Anyway, what happened next, is. Uh. He doesn't really know how to answer, but he'll try.]
I was in a world that was like mine except I was alone and I didn't have any powers or any friends or anyone to help me. But that girl was in there, too, and she was. . . really awful.
He wanted to show me that people like her weren't worth using my powers to save.
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That truly sounds awful, but if I were to guess... you disagreed. You thought she was worth it even if you recognized that she's done terrible things.
[ She doesn't know him too well, but just from their conversation, that's what she's been led to believe. ]
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I think that. . . I changed there in a way I didn't like, because I forgot the people who are important to me. But if I can change because of other people, then anybody can change.
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Jeanne shifts how she holds the bowl of milk, so she can take one of Mob's hands with her free one. She smiles warmly at him. ]
Anyone can change, for good or bad. It is easy to believe in the worst, but for you to believe the better of someone even after seeing them do awful things makes you strong and kind.
[ She doesn't want him to lose that. ]
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[Blushing a little? At the compliment?]
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So I'd like for you to keep being you. Now, let's not keep your cat waiting, shall we?
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Mm. Let's go help her.