kano catchall

[exercisms]

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[exercisms]

[That's what he thought he meant. But also. . . ]

You haven't seen the worst of me, either.

[suddenlybees]

Oh, yeah, that's true.

[ There's no way a kid can be like this all the time, it can only get worse. ]

What are you like at your worst?

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I hurt people, and destroy things.

[Looking away from him.]

I sent my brother to the hospital once.

[suddenlybees]

[ Little kids go to the hospital for the most innocuous things, so that's about the extent Kano's mind goes. ]

Was it on purpose?

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[Shaking his head.]

It was an accident, but these accidents keep happening.

[suddenlybees]

I mean... sometimes you just have bad luck? I cause accidents all the time.

[ Sometimes on purpose? A lot of the time not on purpose. But he is very much a magnet for bad karma. ]

Isn't the more important point that it's not on purpose? All your bad things.

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It's not bad luck. It's me. I -

[He's not explaining it well.]

I have psychic abilities. And there are times when I'm not able to control what happens because of them.

[suddenlybees]

Like... mind reading...?

[ Did he give his brother a migraine that sent him to the hospital, what, Mob needs to explain more ]

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Telekinesis.

[Moving things around. So.]

I can move things and lift things. If I don't hold back enough, I can break a lot of things or hurt people.

[suddenlybees]

And you used it on your brother.

[ To play upsie daisy or? ]

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Mm.

[He doesn't really talk about this memory, Kano, so feel special!]

Except there was a day things got out of control. When I came to, some people were really hurt. Including Ritsu. He was really hurt. He was bleeding from his head.

[suddenlybees]

[ He doesn't feel special, he feels sad and confused!!! ): ]

I— but you didn't mean to. [ That's the sticking point for him, the most important point. ]

I dunno too much about psychic stuff, but it's nothing different than a fist, right? Sometimes... somebody gets real upset and hits you and it hurts- but they didn't mean it. That doesn't make them a bad person. Sometimes people lose control- that's human.

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I don't think that's right. A fist. . . if someone hits you, being angry is no excuse. They still hit you. It still hurt.

[It isn't right to hit people in anger either?]

If they do something like that, I don't necessarily think they're a bad person either - as long as they try to change, so it doesn't happen again.

[suddenlybees]

What if... they didn't mean it. Like, if they apologize right after, and they cry, and they clearly hurt more than they hurt you. [ It doesn't make things okay, but. It's like there's something he needs to justify. ]

Sorta like a porcupine or a cactus: they can't change. But they're not bad people either, right?

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I think. . . accidents can happen, and mistakes can happen. But I don't believe there's such a thing as a person who can't change.

[He can't believe that. If it's not possible, then he also. . . ]

Knowing that your actions are hurting someone, feeling sad about that - it isn't enough. It can't be enough. Not if you don't try to do anything about it.

[suddenlybees]

[ Kano falls quiet, thoughtful, neither nodding nor shaking his head and instead eventually opting to shrug his shoulders. ]

Maybe I'm being too lenient... It doesn't matter. Anyways, I envy you for being able to change.

I'm doing the best I can, even if the reasons won't make sense to anybody else. So... it'd be good if you don't think too badly of me.

[ Tomorrow. During execution. His stupid canon reasons why it had to be both of them ): ]

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I won't.

[He can't, at this point, try to change him or show him there's a different way. So all he can do is promise to continue caring about him.

And maybe one other thing?]

It - it made me happy. When you said it was okay not to smile just to get along with everyone. That made me really happy.

[suddenlybees]

Eh... Something small like that made you happy? This is probably weird coming from me, but, like... More people can stand to hear it, I think. Like, you don't have to pretend to be happy just to please other people; instead, you should, like, do it for yourself. ...Something like that?

[ He is literally the worst hypocrite and has no right to say these things, but he has his reasons for playing pretend all the time... Anyways, do as he says, not as he does /: ]