It's true. Losing your memories means you can change for the worse. But that also means that anyone could become better, if they had the right memories. I can't hate someone like that, because I'm not different than them.
Everyone has the potential for being bad or being good. It's up to the people around them to help influence them when they can't figure it out for themselves.
[...there's a half-smile.] So I guess you're feeling a little better from the other day?
I don't know if better is right. The things I was angry and sad about I'm still angry and sad about, if I think about them. But. . . holding on to those terrible feelings all the time. . . I can't do that forever.
[He fell asleep, and they wore off, and that was inevitable.]
What's better is. . . a lot of people here tried to help me. I feel like I learned a lot from that.
[i can't believe taking a nap actually was the answer.]
I'm glad. That was the best outcome, wasn't it? Knowing how much people care about you to try and help. [he remembers very early on when mob was a very shy baby. he sounds a little proud, actually.] At least knowing that...I hope it's a little easier to deal with those sad and angry feelings when they come again.
[sora himself has a lot of sad and angry feelings he's busy kicking to the curb, so he should maybe consider that for himself, but no. later.]
Nope. [another soft grin just to ease the weight of the words.] I still think people should always be able to express how they feel. But there's also a time and place for it. It's the balance that's hard to find sometimes, but I think you're doing pretty good here.
[...he shouldn't be bothering mob with this, but he does anyway.] Sometimes I think I shouldn't pry so much into how other people are feeling, but I want to be able to help if I can. That was part of my entire journey back home. So it felt like something I should try here.
Pretty sure Sumire felt the same way, too. [help others, but never ask for help.]
I think she definitely did. [Listen he never even learned her name is Sumire, but he liked her a lot.] She did so many nice things for me, but I don't know if I was ever able to do anything for her back.
[He's a little sad, but. He rallies right away.]
So I can try now! If she isn't here to help her friends anymore, I can help them instead.
[Though it's not exactly easy for him to be pushy with people.] . . . I think you're able to help people a lot, too. Like Yoshizawa-san.
I'm sure you did just by being her friend. [listen. he knows a few things about sumire that constantly make him go ? ? ? so he figures that this is actually true.] And I doubt she ever expected you to do anything for her. She's not like that. She liked doing things just because.
But that's the spirit! We'll just have to take over for her and show her the good things she accomplished while she was here. [he pauses then.] I hope you're right. Even if I can't solve the rest of this myself, as long as I can do that I'll be happy.
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It's true. Losing your memories means you can change for the worse. But that also means that anyone could become better, if they had the right memories. I can't hate someone like that, because I'm not different than them.
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[...there's a half-smile.] So I guess you're feeling a little better from the other day?
[he's curious to hear it from mob himself.]
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I don't know if better is right. The things I was angry and sad about I'm still angry and sad about, if I think about them. But. . . holding on to those terrible feelings all the time. . . I can't do that forever.
[He fell asleep, and they wore off, and that was inevitable.]
What's better is. . . a lot of people here tried to help me. I feel like I learned a lot from that.
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I'm glad. That was the best outcome, wasn't it? Knowing how much people care about you to try and help. [he remembers very early on when mob was a very shy baby. he sounds a little proud, actually.] At least knowing that...I hope it's a little easier to deal with those sad and angry feelings when they come again.
[sora himself has a lot of sad and angry feelings he's busy kicking to the curb, so he should maybe consider that for himself, but no. later.]
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[So - part of his shyness is just. The difficulty of dealing with messy things like feelings.]
But I'm glad I was able to talk about it a little. So all of that must not be right after all.
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[...he shouldn't be bothering mob with this, but he does anyway.] Sometimes I think I shouldn't pry so much into how other people are feeling, but I want to be able to help if I can. That was part of my entire journey back home. So it felt like something I should try here.
Pretty sure Sumire felt the same way, too. [help others, but never ask for help.]
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[He's a little sad, but. He rallies right away.]
So I can try now! If she isn't here to help her friends anymore, I can help them instead.
[Though it's not exactly easy for him to be pushy with people.] . . . I think you're able to help people a lot, too. Like Yoshizawa-san.
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But that's the spirit! We'll just have to take over for her and show her the good things she accomplished while she was here. [he pauses then.] I hope you're right. Even if I can't solve the rest of this myself, as long as I can do that I'll be happy.