It was, but I will not lie -- I did what needed to be done, and so my heart isn't heavy from that weight.
Soo-Won and Xie Lian controlled themselves for but a moment, but they both asked to be killed. It would have been selfish of me to ignore that request when they were both suffering.
[He means the position to decide whether to kill someone at all. Anyway, he thinks about that for a minute, choosing his words.]
Some people were trying to hurt me, and my brother, and my friend, and we weren't strong enough to stop them. I'm - my powers are stronger than either of them. My brother and Hanazawa-kun wanted me to stop holding back, even if it meant I might wind up killing them.
I don't want to kill anyone. . . but it isn't right to stand by and do nothing, either. . .
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It was, but I will not lie -- I did what needed to be done, and so my heart isn't heavy from that weight.
Soo-Won and Xie Lian controlled themselves for but a moment, but they both asked to be killed. It would have been selfish of me to ignore that request when they were both suffering.
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[He seems extremely serious about this.]
But making that decision. . . the last time I had to, I could only run away.
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[He's not... upset, necessarily, but that is not exactly a scenario one just stumbles into]
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Some people were trying to hurt me, and my brother, and my friend, and we weren't strong enough to stop them. I'm - my powers are stronger than either of them. My brother and Hanazawa-kun wanted me to stop holding back, even if it meant I might wind up killing them.
I don't want to kill anyone. . . but it isn't right to stand by and do nothing, either. . .
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[Nodding in understanding now]
And you say you ran from the decision all-together?
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That time, I was able to depend on my master. I'm grateful to him, but I wonder if that was really right. . .
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[Chiron would feel like a hypocrite if he said otherwise.]
However, eventually you will have to make the decision for yourself. I'm sure you realize you cannot expect others to save you from uncertainty.
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. . . I want to become able to do that.
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Next is coming up with a plan that will help you reach your goal.
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Like what?