[ it's not like he didn't support kano fighting for his own life, but the fact that he still hid scalpels and was ready to kill with them..... and then attacked jeanne in the back. it doesn't sit well. none of this does. ]
Chad or... whatever his name is now, shouldn't have yelled at you. You didn't do anything wrong.
That's what he said happened. So. . . I wish we had known that.
I know not everyone got along with Kano-san, but he was always kind to me. I think he was a person who wanted to be kinder to others. But you can't make a person change by forcing them.
Yeah, it's not that easy. It takes hard work, and you have to want to change. If were as simple as someone else wishing for it... well, the world would be a lot different.
When I talked to him about it, I mentioned how. . . I wanted to change because I made a promise to my younger brother. But Kano-san didn't have anybody in his life to make a promise like that to. And I think it is really impossible for any person to grow or change without help from others.
But there were people here who cared about him. So maybe, if he'd had more time. . .
. . . He was always very nice to me. I think we were similar in some ways. [Were you?????] Um. Kano-san smiled and laughed lot, but I think he really hated when people told him how to feel, or to pretend about his feelings just to get along with everyone. I also don't like that.
I don't know. You don't beat around the bush. You always say what you mean. He's..... well, I don't know. He always seemed like he was holding back his real feelings.
But I think, because he was holding them back. . . I've never been able to do that. Even if I wanted to pretend. I've never been able to laugh and smile just to get along with everybody. And I think he understood that.
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... Yeah, me too.
[ it's not like he didn't support kano fighting for his own life, but the fact that he still hid scalpels and was ready to kill with them..... and then attacked jeanne in the back. it doesn't sit well. none of this does. ]
Chad or... whatever his name is now, shouldn't have yelled at you. You didn't do anything wrong.
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Probably Vezda. He looks a little - hurt, honestly.]
Mm . . . I think Vezda-san is pretty smart about a lot of things, but there are other things he's wrong about.
But when I think he's wrong, I've always told him so.
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He reminds me of the old me.
[ this is hilarious because zuko is 16 ]
I think he just lashed out because he couldn't deal with his feelings. That's why he left, too.
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I understand what that's like. I always lash out when I can't deal with my feelings, too.
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I used to, too. I'm still working on it, but I'm not as angry as I used to be.
It takes a lot of practice. And honestly... we're all pretty on edge, with all this happening.
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It's hard to change. And people act in strange ways when they're upset. . . so it's okay. I'm not angry with him.
[Hmm.]
Um. You know. . .
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I think he'll probably come around once he's had time to simmer down.
....
What's up?
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[ . . . ]
I think. . . everyone will continue to think of him badly, for how he acted at trial, and think it was his fault, because they don't know about it.
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What happened to him?
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[ that does explain a few things. ]
That's... really bad timing.
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That's what he said happened. So. . . I wish we had known that.
I know not everyone got along with Kano-san, but he was always kind to me. I think he was a person who wanted to be kinder to others. But you can't make a person change by forcing them.
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[ that makes a big difference ]
Yeah, it's not that easy. It takes hard work, and you have to want to change. If were as simple as someone else wishing for it... well, the world would be a lot different.
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[. . .]
When I talked to him about it, I mentioned how. . . I wanted to change because I made a promise to my younger brother. But Kano-san didn't have anybody in his life to make a promise like that to. And I think it is really impossible for any person to grow or change without help from others.
But there were people here who cared about him. So maybe, if he'd had more time. . .
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[ zuko always had his uncle, and there's no way he would have changed without him. so. yeah. he exhales. ]
If not for Uncle, I wouldn't have changed, either. But Kano.... he seemed like he really wanted us to hate him, even at the end.
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[Don't be mean to her even if he feels a little iffy about it.]
I'm not sure. He asked me not to think badly of him. Last night.
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[ he has a couple of guesses, though. ]
Even though he acted like he wanted to push people away.... he couldn't keep that up with you, I bet.
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[So. There you go.]
. . . He was always very nice to me. I think we were similar in some ways. [Were you?????] Um. Kano-san smiled and laughed lot, but I think he really hated when people told him how to feel, or to pretend about his feelings just to get along with everyone. I also don't like that.
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[ .... ]
I don't know. You don't beat around the bush. You always say what you mean. He's..... well, I don't know. He always seemed like he was holding back his real feelings.
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But I think, because he was holding them back. . . I've never been able to do that. Even if I wanted to pretend. I've never been able to laugh and smile just to get along with everybody. And I think he understood that.
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[Wow!!]
I would have tried.
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[ nod of approval. ]
If he had more time.