Hm... well, to begin, we were suddenly transported to a different area. At first it was all four of us walking down a hallway, but then we were divided. Xie Lian and I were brought to a room with two chairs - and there was technology I couldn't understand, but it prompted us to sit and fight against monsters.
Following that, we were knocked out and forced to... see difficult ordeals from our lives, I believe.
[the fucking emotional trauma
despite this, he seems to be detached from explaining it]
From what I understand - our actions in our emotional ordeals were reflected in the actual physical monsters that Ochako and Archer were fighting. Therefore when the two of them won against their monsters, the wounds were then inflicted on Xie Lian and I.
However they gave us a serum to revive us - which made us murderous. The two of them were forced to kill us in order to get us to stop.
[he's trying!! there's just a bit of an amused laugh at that - and he nods]
... I don't. But we were pitted in a situation where at first we did not know we were harming each other, and then the second one...
I was not in control of myself.
Normally, I would do what it takes to survive - I have my own goals and ambitions. But... if I do not have my humanity or my compassion, I do not think I am myself anymore.
So I didn't blame them for getting rid of me. Even still, it doesn't make the choice any less difficult.
But depending on what someone's goals are - they don't need to trample on other people in order to reach them. I find that harmony between varying opinions is often difficult, but worth it.
But it's alright! Because I'm alive now, so I won't have to.
I just want to ensure that everyone else is careful - it was a difficult ordeal, and it's hard to be prepared for it. I don't want anyone's hearts or bodies to get broken from an unexpected experience.
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Mm, that's good. Did she explain anything to you, or would you like to know what happened from my perspective?
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[Look, I don't know yet whether he asked, but he can hear it again.]
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Hm... well, to begin, we were suddenly transported to a different area. At first it was all four of us walking down a hallway, but then we were divided. Xie Lian and I were brought to a room with two chairs - and there was technology I couldn't understand, but it prompted us to sit and fight against monsters.
Following that, we were knocked out and forced to... see difficult ordeals from our lives, I believe.
[the fucking emotional trauma
despite this, he seems to be detached from explaining it]
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That's terrible. And you got hurt from the monsters?
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From what I understand - our actions in our emotional ordeals were reflected in the actual physical monsters that Ochako and Archer were fighting. Therefore when the two of them won against their monsters, the wounds were then inflicted on Xie Lian and I.
However they gave us a serum to revive us - which made us murderous. The two of them were forced to kill us in order to get us to stop.
[which he seems slow to admit but -
mob ought to know, given that he asked]
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Something like that. . . that's terrible. They brought you in there and did something so cruel?
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[and soo-won just looks a bit tired from it, before his expression turns concerned]
... take care if they try to test you the same way, alright? Try to live, no matter what happens.
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Try to live? Even if you're going to hurt someone else?
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In truth, you should likely try to escape any situation with the least amount of casualties possible. That's my first piece of advice.
... though in situations where you cannot...
No one would blame you for trying to live.
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I wouldn't want to be in that situation. But it did happen, to you.
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It did.
[a beat]
Are you bringing it up because you want to know how I felt about it?
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[He assumes he feels bad. He's not really asking because he wants to know; he's just trying to be nice. But he's bad at feelings, so.]
. . . You're so nice. I know you don't want to hurt anyone either.
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... I don't. But we were pitted in a situation where at first we did not know we were harming each other, and then the second one...
I was not in control of myself.
Normally, I would do what it takes to survive - I have my own goals and ambitions. But... if I do not have my humanity or my compassion, I do not think I am myself anymore.
So I didn't blame them for getting rid of me. Even still, it doesn't make the choice any less difficult.
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[He's considering this, like it's a new perspective.]
If those are important things, then you can't only consider others.
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Not only...
But depending on what someone's goals are - they don't need to trample on other people in order to reach them. I find that harmony between varying opinions is often difficult, but worth it.
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[That's not his problem.]
Someone like you. . . you shouldn't have to give up your dreams, either.
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Mm, I think so too.
But it's alright! Because I'm alive now, so I won't have to.
I just want to ensure that everyone else is careful - it was a difficult ordeal, and it's hard to be prepared for it. I don't want anyone's hearts or bodies to get broken from an unexpected experience.
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a little soft smile at that, and a nod]
Thank you, Shigeo. I'll keep that in mind. You're very kind - and I hope not to make you worry after me too much.
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[You said so!!!]