[Taking that as permission to proceed! She will move to lean against the bridge, wringing her hands.]
So, um... Recently, I was told about the "splintering" Leveilleur-san spoke about. This didn't come directly from one of the leaders, but the person who spoke to me about it heard it from Viridian-san first, and later confirmed it with their leader. [A pause, as she thinks about how best to say this.] The reason I didn't want to go into much detail earlier is because I don't want to cause a disruption, or give anyone a reason to become violent. Supposedly... Viridian-san, and the person who killed Cater-san, were ordered to do it because Ichinose-san and Cater-san's nova was splintering. But I haven't had the time to speak to my leader about this yet, so...
Everyone I've talked to here is a kind person. It's been hard to believe anyone would hurt someone else for such selfish reasons. But maybe. . . maybe they felt like they had to do this?
I had the support of my friends. [A hint of fondness, as sad and exhausted as she otherwise feels.] If I had been alone... I don't think I would have gotten through it.
Well... Do you recamember that time at the space station? There was no way I would've gotten through it without your help. [EVEN IF HE WENT AGGRO...] And that's not the only time.
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Yoshizawa-san. Are you all right?
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[They didn't scapegoat someone this time, so that's keeping her from feeling like complete shit, at least. Mostly just tired.]
But I agreed I owed you an explanation.
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So, um... Recently, I was told about the "splintering" Leveilleur-san spoke about. This didn't come directly from one of the leaders, but the person who spoke to me about it heard it from Viridian-san first, and later confirmed it with their leader. [A pause, as she thinks about how best to say this.] The reason I didn't want to go into much detail earlier is because I don't want to cause a disruption, or give anyone a reason to become violent. Supposedly... Viridian-san, and the person who killed Cater-san, were ordered to do it because Ichinose-san and Cater-san's nova was splintering. But I haven't had the time to speak to my leader about this yet, so...
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Splintering. . .
I knew that one of the leaders asked Viridian-san to kill someone. But if that's the reason why, then. . .
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According to that person, something worse would have happened if they weren't killed. But...
[It still kind of sucks?]
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[He still seems to be processing it.]
Everyone I've talked to here is a kind person. It's been hard to believe anyone would hurt someone else for such selfish reasons. But maybe. . . maybe they felt like they had to do this?
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[He nods, a little sadly, looking down at the river.]
Have you ever had to make a decision like that, Yoshizawa-san? To decide between taking someone's life and letting others be hurt?
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I guess I could say I had to make a similar choice recently. But it wasn't exactly like this.
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[And he does feel sad, when she mentions it. His emotions, like always, are foggy and pushed down somewhere, but sadness is there.]
How were you able to make a decision like that?
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[He'll match her fondness with a little spike of his own.]
If it weren't for them, I could have done something terrible. It's much harder to be alone.
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Friends are really great, aren't they?
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[He does have great friends! And he still remembers some of them.]
That's why I think - if my friends can help me make better decisions, maybe I can also help someone that way.
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It's not a maybe, Kageyama-san. [A gentle shake of her head.] I don't doubt there are people you have already helped that way.
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[He looks kind of startled by this, but also pleased?]
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I have?
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Yes, you have.
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[He wants to keep doing it!!]
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You have helped me a lot, too!
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