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[exercisms]

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[stillnot]

[ kitty........ ]

Uh, thanks? [ she thinks that's a funny thing to say because she never really considered herself in danger? wow. ]

You - startled all of us. I probably should have sent a message or something.

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It's all right. I sent one to Ochako-chan, so I thought maybe she'd. . .

[But who knows if she got it in time.]

It was all only an accident. I'm sorry I caused you so much trouble, when you already had so much to worry about.

[stillnot]

Don't worry about that. The part that we were worrying about went smoothly.

[ like, getting sick wasn't great. but everyone scheming to vote for one person is very very easy when that person wanted to be caught to begin with. ]

Even if it hadn't, it wasn't really your fault.

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["The part we were worrying about." Elsa. He thinks about her, and feels a little sad.]

. . . At least, I need to say thank you. If it weren't for you and Hilda-san having to go through all of that, I wouldn't have been able to come back.

[stillnot]

[ that - gets her to hesitate. sometimes it's hard to close herself off as much as she wants to. ]

It's not like we did something good.

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Not good, no.

[It was bad no matter what.]

But. . . I'm thankful to you. That you did something so others wouldn't have to, that helped me.

[stillnot]

I wanted to do more.

[ ... whatever that means. but whatever. she shakes her head. ]

But I'll take it.

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More?

[He does want to know what that means.]

[stillnot]

Just - instead of sacrificing other people from our group. Could have been me.

I'd already done everything my role seemed like it was for.

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Your role, that's right.

[They talked a little bit about this, in the graveyard, but he's already forgotten what she can do.]

. . . It was really sad, what happened to Ochako-chan and Archer-san. And it would have been really sad if it happened to you, too. Not better. The same.

[stillnot]

[ she thinks he's right about that... she's only half motivated by guilt, though. ]

Yeah. I might just be being selfish.

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Maybe.

[Wow!]

Sometimes, it would be easier to know that you're the only one that's hurting, right? If you could take that for yourself, so no one else had to be hurt. . . even if that isn't what they would want. . .

There's a kind of selfishness that's kind.

[stillnot]

That's an interesting way of looking at it. Don't know if I ever thought about it like that.

[ but it does line up with parts of how she'd felt? maybe not all of it, but still. ]

... People were going to end up hurt no matter what. I think I just... Didn't want to be the last one left, again. Even if it was temporary.

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Mm. Though if you were over there, I think it would've been hard, too. There'd be less you could do to help everyone.

. . . But for me, it was good to be able not to worry as much.