The four of us were split up -- I was with Ochako, and we were taken to a place where two monsters attacked us. Their movements were rather odd, in retrospect, and there was a theory that they were correlated to Xie Lian and Soo-Won, wherever they were taken.
[Frowning slightly]
Regardless, Ochako and I defeated our foes and walked into another room. There Soo-Won and Xie Lian lay, dead. Two serums were found by Ochako, saying they could revive our fallen companions, but when we administered them, we were attacked by both of them.
It was, but I will not lie -- I did what needed to be done, and so my heart isn't heavy from that weight.
Soo-Won and Xie Lian controlled themselves for but a moment, but they both asked to be killed. It would have been selfish of me to ignore that request when they were both suffering.
[He means the position to decide whether to kill someone at all. Anyway, he thinks about that for a minute, choosing his words.]
Some people were trying to hurt me, and my brother, and my friend, and we weren't strong enough to stop them. I'm - my powers are stronger than either of them. My brother and Hanazawa-kun wanted me to stop holding back, even if it meant I might wind up killing them.
I don't want to kill anyone. . . but it isn't right to stand by and do nothing, either. . .
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[how to even explain this]
The four of us were split up -- I was with Ochako, and we were taken to a place where two monsters attacked us. Their movements were rather odd, in retrospect, and there was a theory that they were correlated to Xie Lian and Soo-Won, wherever they were taken.
[Frowning slightly]
Regardless, Ochako and I defeated our foes and walked into another room. There Soo-Won and Xie Lian lay, dead. Two serums were found by Ochako, saying they could revive our fallen companions, but when we administered them, we were attacked by both of them.
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So we killed them before they killed us.
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[That's terrible? He looks a little shocked at that.]
You had to make such a terrible decision.
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It was, but I will not lie -- I did what needed to be done, and so my heart isn't heavy from that weight.
Soo-Won and Xie Lian controlled themselves for but a moment, but they both asked to be killed. It would have been selfish of me to ignore that request when they were both suffering.
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[He seems extremely serious about this.]
But making that decision. . . the last time I had to, I could only run away.
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[He's not... upset, necessarily, but that is not exactly a scenario one just stumbles into]
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Some people were trying to hurt me, and my brother, and my friend, and we weren't strong enough to stop them. I'm - my powers are stronger than either of them. My brother and Hanazawa-kun wanted me to stop holding back, even if it meant I might wind up killing them.
I don't want to kill anyone. . . but it isn't right to stand by and do nothing, either. . .
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[Nodding in understanding now]
And you say you ran from the decision all-together?
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That time, I was able to depend on my master. I'm grateful to him, but I wonder if that was really right. . .
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[Chiron would feel like a hypocrite if he said otherwise.]
However, eventually you will have to make the decision for yourself. I'm sure you realize you cannot expect others to save you from uncertainty.
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. . . I want to become able to do that.
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Next is coming up with a plan that will help you reach your goal.
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Like what?