[She's started a little project with funnier shaped rocks on the shore - they won't work for what she needs for the shrine, but that doesn't mean she can't have a little fun with it. Right now it just looks kind of like the start of a box or something.]
Shigeo-kun, um...
Thank you. For... standing up for me a little during the trial. I know you shouldn't have had to do that.
I know he can get kind of angry really fast... but he wasn't wrong to ask what he did or anything.
[He didn't have proof that she was telling the truth, after all.]
I'm gonna try to talk to him later. I told him I would. I... think he'll still be mad, but...
I just didn't think telling something like that completely was a good idea. I didn't want to hide it, or that I used it... but I... I think bringing up anything more than that would have just made things even worse when we were supposed to be talking about Raven and Laine-san.
I don't think he was wrong to ask, either. [He nods in agreement.] But it would have been wrong to spend time at trial on that, when we didn't have time. [So that's why he jumped in.]
But. . . [He's frowning.] I didn't really like hearing what Cervantes-san and Shiro-san said, either. People like that - kind people, who want to protect your feelings - sometimes even though they're kind, listening to people like that is the wrong thing to do.
I know why they tried to do what they did. And I... I like all of them. But... it... it hurt more, for them to do that, then... then what Vesda-san did.
I don't need my hand held for my own mistakes, you know? How else am I supposed to learn...?
[Ahhhh, don't be sad. But he gets what she means.]
. . . After Kano-san's execution, Cervantes-san and Vezda-san and Archer-san were all very angry with me. But they didn't say anything to me. I was able to talk to Vezda-san about it, but the other two. . . they have still never said anything at all.
[His affectation is still pretty blank, as usual, but he sounds a little hurt.]
Before that, I felt that I could talk to those two about a lot of things. I talked to them about how hard I'm trying to learn to make decisions for myself. But if they aren't even willing to scold me, if they aren't willing to tell me when I'm wrong, then doesn't that mean protecting my feelings is more important to them than what I want for myself?
I don't know if that's the case all the time, but... I don't like that they see people like you and me, and they see how young we are... and make choices for us.
[there's a ripple of anger, of empathy, as her fists tighten at her sides.]
...
I... would say something to Chiron-sensei, though. He's scolded me when I didn't always want to hear it, but...
I think, maybe, he's a little different. That... at least for me, he's willing to let me make my choices for myself even if he disagrees with them, or if he chides me. He... he listens, at least.
[She can't speak for the rest... and she herself is still hurt at Hansa as well so good job priest dad, two for two there.]
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Do you remember what you promised your brother, Shigeo-kun?
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[He brightens up at that.]
. . . I do remember. I promised him that I would change.
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Yeah! Okay, good. Next time I see you, I'll ask again, okay?
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[Her friends!]
You didn't write them in your book.
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[She looks up from where she's leaned over, tilting her head in confusion.]
Do I remember... what, Shigeo-kun? I didn't hear you.
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[Her friends. Oh no!]
I wrote it down in your book. Your friends, the ones you didn't want to forget.
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[This is the first she's heard of it?]
My book was empty this morning, Shigeo-kun... I mean, outside of what Hansa-san and I wrote...
Maybe I just missed it? I've got a lot of friends, but...
I... don't think I ever told you about any of them. Did I?
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[But the book didn't help :( Oh no.]
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[Her brow furrows. Who... else was left? Who would she have ever asked someone to remember like that?
Slowly, she starts listing off on her fingers.]
Clef, Presea, Ferio, Ascot, Caldina, Rafaga, Emeraude, Zagato, Lantis, Primera, Eagle... um...
It wasn't any of those?
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Hikaru-san, is it okay if I tell you about some of my friends?
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Yeah! You said you're a second-year, right?
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[But he's not going to tell her about his friends from school. He loves them, but they're not his most important people.]
Um. Their names are Umi-chan and Fuu-chan.
[Can she understand him when he says that?]
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[Said as though the sounds are foreign.]
Mm.... They're cute names! Are they girls at your school?
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[Smiling just a little at that.]
Do you want to come meet them, then?
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[I mean, that sounds like fun! But hm.]
I don't know what that place is, though, Shigeo-kun... I think that's where Usagi-chan and Yoshizawa-chan might live, though? Oh, and Shiro-san, too.
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Where do you live?
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I just really want you to meet them, because I think you'd get along with them.
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[She's started a little project with funnier shaped rocks on the shore - they won't work for what she needs for the shrine, but that doesn't mean she can't have a little fun with it. Right now it just looks kind of like the start of a box or something.]
Shigeo-kun, um...
Thank you. For... standing up for me a little during the trial. I know you shouldn't have had to do that.
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He continues picking up rocks, but he looks a little troubled.]
Vezda-san is not very tactful. He pushes too hard without thinking, and takes his feelings about things out on others.
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I know he can get kind of angry really fast... but he wasn't wrong to ask what he did or anything.
[He didn't have proof that she was telling the truth, after all.]
I'm gonna try to talk to him later. I told him I would. I... think he'll still be mad, but...
I just didn't think telling something like that completely was a good idea. I didn't want to hide it, or that I used it... but I... I think bringing up anything more than that would have just made things even worse when we were supposed to be talking about Raven and Laine-san.
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But. . . [He's frowning.] I didn't really like hearing what Cervantes-san and Shiro-san said, either. People like that - kind people, who want to protect your feelings - sometimes even though they're kind, listening to people like that is the wrong thing to do.
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...Yeah. Claude, too.
I know why they tried to do what they did. And I... I like all of them. But... it... it hurt more, for them to do that, then... then what Vesda-san did.
I don't need my hand held for my own mistakes, you know? How else am I supposed to learn...?
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. . . After Kano-san's execution, Cervantes-san and Vezda-san and Archer-san were all very angry with me. But they didn't say anything to me. I was able to talk to Vezda-san about it, but the other two. . . they have still never said anything at all.
[His affectation is still pretty blank, as usual, but he sounds a little hurt.]
Before that, I felt that I could talk to those two about a lot of things. I talked to them about how hard I'm trying to learn to make decisions for myself. But if they aren't even willing to scold me, if they aren't willing to tell me when I'm wrong, then doesn't that mean protecting my feelings is more important to them than what I want for myself?
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[there's a ripple of anger, of empathy, as her fists tighten at her sides.]
...
I... would say something to Chiron-sensei, though. He's scolded me when I didn't always want to hear it, but...
I think, maybe, he's a little different. That... at least for me, he's willing to let me make my choices for myself even if he disagrees with them, or if he chides me. He... he listens, at least.
[She can't speak for the rest... and she herself is still hurt at Hansa as well so good job priest dad, two for two there.]
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